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I have never thought much about this guy I have met about a year ago. To me, he was just an acquaintance. It was until that day when we actually chatted in closer setting that I found his eye contact to be really, really intense. My heart literally skipped a beat. Then, I caught him staring at me during our tutorial class over the next few weeks. But slowly, it just became a glance that holds eye contact for a few seconds before he breaks away. He does this without fail for every sequence class.
One day, he spotted my friend and I along with the corridor. He waved and smiled really, really wide. I was so stunned that I didn’t react. I have never met someone who would smile so openly. I. Am. So. Dead. Crushing. Hard.
He remembers what I told him before. He replies fairly quickly whenever I text him (only twice so far.) But he was never the one who would text first.
I tried making opportunities to be with him. Sometimes, it brings me one step closer to think that he actually likes me. Sometimes, it just sets me back and concludes that I’m just a friend.
Damn him and this confusion. What is going on?? If he hadn’t looked at me so intensely in the eye in the first place, I wouldn’t even be in this situation.
The last time someone liked me, I also took notice of him and started falling for him. Yet, it only ended in a heartbreak because he only wanted a girlfriend and it didn’t matter who it was. I was nothing special to him and easily replaceable.
I am so afraid this would happen again…