I was “happily married” for 10 years with 2 kids with my husband. He was mine first and last boyfriend that i had and from the past 8 years i constantly seek his attention and love. We would come home every day in day out with work and kids. I always longed for his attention and my sexual needs was never met.
Eventually we talked lesser and even slept apart at times. Then there was this new colleagues of mine its all started with having lunch together and eventually we were working late and one night we all had too much to drink and I cheated on my husband.
For the past two years, I had no remorse as I felt loved and wanted. I could get all the attention i wanted from this colleague of mine.
Well i come to realize that cheating will never be able to keep under the wraps and my husband found out about us. I had no qualms about having a divorce than to live a loveless marriage.My husband cry and begged me to stay that told me he would changed for the better. He told me that children cannot do without a mother.
Everybody blames me for everything because i was the one who cheated. However who will realize the lonely years i went through. I would rather be happy and feel loved. I still miss this colleague of mine but i know all he wants is sex from. I know I’m being dumb but I just don’t know what to do with my life at this point I’m so lost and confused.